Writing is hard

[infiniteandsmall]

Have been trying to write again, and have been marginally successful because of habitrpg, and because I figured out that the best motivator was needing to get ten points to cash in in order to make any kind of edit to my "current faves" playlist, but less productive in actually getting things done, because homestuck steam punk story is too involved and plotty and just noon for the brain right now, and I've been very stuck with the Glee barn AU for reasons that I have trying to be figure out. Part of it was that it was hard to write about something so close and that there were complicated emotions and that I was very afraid to misrepresent something that is so important to me but. Something was also not working on a technical level, and I could figure out what that was, and that it was frustrating as fuck. And then I had a breakthrough while watering, which happens often and then I get distracted and accidentally almost spray the ponies with the hose. I was trying to start where the action does, but there was all this backstory and history hanging around that was necessary just to know how the barn works, because this isn't going to be super actiony and plotty it's mostly just barn life with like barn regionals in the form of an away show and I mean in this verse Blaine and Santana took pony lessons together when they were six! Backstory everywhere. Which is how it is at the barn because I've known some of these people since I was six and it is kind of family-like in that there is so much history. But now that that is figured out this story is gonna be completely different in the start but I know how it needs to be different and that is comforting.