Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
May. 9th, 2013 12:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
infiniteandsmall Tech week--Tonight was a "tech night" to get us back up to speed for the next weekend of shows. It feels so weird that the spring set of shows are almost over. I did Little Mermaid, tech week, shows that weekend, shows the next weekend, then right into tech week for this current show, a weekend of shows, and now we have three more shows this weekend. It was supposed to be tomorrow but they switched it at the last minute because tomorrow they'll need the auditorium for auditions, which means for the first time in two weeks I can watch Glee. However, because of the sudden change, half the people couldn't show up, including the lighting guy. Basically, after realizing that there were enough people missing that running the show became pointless, everyone ceased giving fucks. Crew stood in for Tinkerbell and backup dancers. Rapunzel and Peter Pan switched places. The kid who plays Aladdin walked up to me while I was eating crew cake and ATE IT OUT OF MY HAND. Actors. I swear to god (no one eats my cake).
Asking for a job--One of the grooms at the barn is going away to college. She is awesome but sadly must leave us in the pursuit of EDUCATION. She grooms three nights a week, at least, and now they're looking for people to fill in. I basically spend half my life there but have never had an actual paying job, only ones that pay in riding hours. A bunch of people have been telling me the ask the barn owner for a job, but I have no idea how I would go about that. It's not like I need to apply or anything, but then what do I do? Just walk up and say HELLO I WANT A JOB? How does one do this? I HAVE NO SCRIPT FOR THIS THIS IS BAD but I want that job. There's also the possibility of getting my uncle's car. He can't drive any more because his lungs are basically gone (he was smoking eight packs a day at one point). The only problem is whether or not I can air it out and clean it out enough because the windows are YELLOW and I can't even go in the thing without feeling like I'm going to choke. It's so weird, though, because having a job and a car (and if I had a car my mom would be more likely to let me get my license, and then I'd have to have a cell phone) would literally make everything different, because I could go places myself? Read books that my parents don't want me to? Visit websites my parents don't want me to? Talk to people my parents don't was me to? Like, wow, I would actually have a way out?? What am I supposed to do with this information?
I'm kind of worried that it won't happen, because my mom's been even more overprotective than usual. She's been talking a lot about how she's worried I'll be kidnapped, then saying she wouldn't know what she'd do if that happened. That I'm the "love of her life" and she'd have no life without me, that someday I'll have a job and she'll have to pay me to get me to spend time with her and someday I'll meet a man who won't like her, and it's just so exhausting.
I've been hiding in my room lately trying to remember all the pop-punk songs I used to love when I was little. One of the girls on crew was wearing a My Chemical Romance hoodie and I swear, five people asked what that was, and we started talking about various pop-punk bands. This can only end in sitting up at midnight listening to Green Day and going WHY HAVE I NOT LISTENED TO THIS IN SO LONG? Paramore was always my fave, though. I remembering having such a crush on Hayley Williams. GIRLS WITH HAIR DYED IN UNNATURAL COLORS: YES PLEASE.
Also, I want to make another post with all the Gleevengers mapped out properly. Because Gleevengers.
Asking for a job--One of the grooms at the barn is going away to college. She is awesome but sadly must leave us in the pursuit of EDUCATION. She grooms three nights a week, at least, and now they're looking for people to fill in. I basically spend half my life there but have never had an actual paying job, only ones that pay in riding hours. A bunch of people have been telling me the ask the barn owner for a job, but I have no idea how I would go about that. It's not like I need to apply or anything, but then what do I do? Just walk up and say HELLO I WANT A JOB? How does one do this? I HAVE NO SCRIPT FOR THIS THIS IS BAD but I want that job. There's also the possibility of getting my uncle's car. He can't drive any more because his lungs are basically gone (he was smoking eight packs a day at one point). The only problem is whether or not I can air it out and clean it out enough because the windows are YELLOW and I can't even go in the thing without feeling like I'm going to choke. It's so weird, though, because having a job and a car (and if I had a car my mom would be more likely to let me get my license, and then I'd have to have a cell phone) would literally make everything different, because I could go places myself? Read books that my parents don't want me to? Visit websites my parents don't want me to? Talk to people my parents don't was me to? Like, wow, I would actually have a way out?? What am I supposed to do with this information?
I'm kind of worried that it won't happen, because my mom's been even more overprotective than usual. She's been talking a lot about how she's worried I'll be kidnapped, then saying she wouldn't know what she'd do if that happened. That I'm the "love of her life" and she'd have no life without me, that someday I'll have a job and she'll have to pay me to get me to spend time with her and someday I'll meet a man who won't like her, and it's just so exhausting.
I've been hiding in my room lately trying to remember all the pop-punk songs I used to love when I was little. One of the girls on crew was wearing a My Chemical Romance hoodie and I swear, five people asked what that was, and we started talking about various pop-punk bands. This can only end in sitting up at midnight listening to Green Day and going WHY HAVE I NOT LISTENED TO THIS IN SO LONG? Paramore was always my fave, though. I remembering having such a crush on Hayley Williams. GIRLS WITH HAIR DYED IN UNNATURAL COLORS: YES PLEASE.
Also, I want to make another post with all the Gleevengers mapped out properly. Because Gleevengers.
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Date: 2013-05-09 04:11 am (UTC)As far as the rest, that is a tough place to be, what with being on the cusp of a bunch of steps toward adulthood/independence (car, job, phone) and having a very attached parent. :| I hope you're able to take at least some of those steps, and maybe taking them will also help your mom let go a little and recognize that it's likely you will someday have a job and a separate residence and so forth. And it's not the end of the world! So I wish you luck with everyone's experience with these transitions, you and your mom and everyone else involved.
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Date: 2013-05-09 08:33 am (UTC)I HAVE NO SCRIPT FOR THIS THIS IS BAD but I want that job.
It's not a hard script. It goes like this:
You: Hi!
BossPerson: Hi...
You: [Insert awesome Groom's name here] mentioned that she's going back to study, and had to quit her job here. Do you have anyone in mind for the position?
BossPerson: We're advertising it (in which case, ask where and when and then apply),
OR: We're giving it to so-and-so (which would suck, but you can use it as a chance to say you're interested and ask them to keep you in mind next time),
OR: We don't have anyone yet (in which case, big smile and tell them that you love horses/to ride/the smell of fresh manure and you'd be interesting in the role).
From there, it should be easy to work out if you need to officially apply or if it's a trial-basis type job or whatever.
(And why is giving this advice to other people so much easier than figuring out these conversations for my own life, huh?)
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Date: 2013-05-14 05:43 pm (UTC)Thank you so much! I pretty much used that, told her I was interested, and later that day she called and said that she thought it would work out really well. I have one night for sure and possibly another. I'VE GOT A JOB I'M SO HAPPY plus it's a pretty awesome job. THANK YOU SO MUCH, seriously.
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Date: 2013-05-14 05:48 pm (UTC)Thank you! I'm just taking it day by day and hoping to get something sorted out between us.
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Date: 2013-05-14 11:41 pm (UTC)