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This essay is very interesting and brings up yet another bad thing about the abstinence-only, limited and vague sex ed that most conservative homeschoolers get.
I never received any kind of sex ed (I literally learned everything I know about sex from fanfic, though I was reading graphic sex scenes when I was pretty young and knew about sex before any of my friends did), and as a result, I thought I was asexual because I felt nothing towards boys. The nice tingly feelings I got from girls? Didn't everyone feel that? I thought that when I was attracted towards boys, something bigger and more explosive would happen. I would feel fluttery towards all of them, to a one, be intrigued and excited and unable to hold a conversation or think of anything else.
Then I realized that, hey lesbians existed, around the same time I had my first crush, one celebrity and one in real life, both girls, and realized that, hey, maybe I was one?
I was never told what I would experience, physically or emotionally, never opened up to other ideas about sexuality (asexuality felt much more acceptable and something I had more experience with, as a few of my good online friends were asexual whereas I mostly watched Teh Gays of my forum with a shy kind of interest, trying to find what it was all about and how it wasn't actually a horrible sin, and yes I was kind of a little shit at ten years old).
( TMI alert )
Basically keeping kids in ignorance of their bodies, sexuality (what it is and that they have it) and treating the whole thing like it's a shameful terrible bother is actively harmful and I think it sucks.
I never received any kind of sex ed (I literally learned everything I know about sex from fanfic, though I was reading graphic sex scenes when I was pretty young and knew about sex before any of my friends did), and as a result, I thought I was asexual because I felt nothing towards boys. The nice tingly feelings I got from girls? Didn't everyone feel that? I thought that when I was attracted towards boys, something bigger and more explosive would happen. I would feel fluttery towards all of them, to a one, be intrigued and excited and unable to hold a conversation or think of anything else.
Then I realized that, hey lesbians existed, around the same time I had my first crush, one celebrity and one in real life, both girls, and realized that, hey, maybe I was one?
I was never told what I would experience, physically or emotionally, never opened up to other ideas about sexuality (asexuality felt much more acceptable and something I had more experience with, as a few of my good online friends were asexual whereas I mostly watched Teh Gays of my forum with a shy kind of interest, trying to find what it was all about and how it wasn't actually a horrible sin, and yes I was kind of a little shit at ten years old).
( TMI alert )
Basically keeping kids in ignorance of their bodies, sexuality (what it is and that they have it) and treating the whole thing like it's a shameful terrible bother is actively harmful and I think it sucks.
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Jul. 1st, 2013 12:48 am As happy as I am about the death of DOMA and Prop 8, it meant I had to sit through a sermon about how America is going downhill and gay marriage is child abuse and now I just really want to either sleep or get caught up on Teen Wolf, but I'm still raging.
( Caps lock ON )
Cough.
Also, MTV, please get episodes two and three of Teen Wolf working please and thank you. Also that locker room scene at the start of 3.04 was PERFECT. STILES. SCOTT. DANNY. Have a threesome that's a good way to lose one's virginity amiright?
( Caps lock ON )
Cough.
Also, MTV, please get episodes two and three of Teen Wolf working please and thank you. Also that locker room scene at the start of 3.04 was PERFECT. STILES. SCOTT. DANNY.
I was thinking about f-locking this, but I decided not to. I'm still BFF's with the friend that I talk about in here and I don't want anyone I know IRL to find this, especially because it's very specific and very personal and all that stuff. I wouldn't post it on tumblr, that's for sure.
But only one person IRL knows about this journal and she's never met the people in this, with the exception of my sister. I don't use my face or my name on here. And yes, I know internet anonymity isn't always as anonymous as I'd like, but f-locking this still feels pointless. Basically if you know me IRL and I haven't invited you to friend me on here please back away slowly, and if you start to read and go HOLY CRAP I KNOW THIS CHICK please don't comment or tell any one or anything just. Shh. I am adding this warning because even though this scenariois unlikely I would face really big real life consequences if most IRL people I know find out about this journal. Trigger warning under the cut for talks of cults and suicide.
