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Okay it wasn't totally unexpected I've been mulling over it for like three months? Kinda?? But idk at some point it was really unexpected

I've worked every day this week, I just have tomorrow night and then I'm off until Sunday but will still be going down to the barn for fun stuff like riding/hanging with friends/the barn christmas party. Yesterday I was filling in for the usual groom, one of my really good friends who I don't get to see a lot was the junior groom, so it was really fun, and then while I was finishing up cleaning a saddle my lease horse's owner came into the lunch room and said, "hey, do you want to ride Skip? I hurt my knee and I can't." So I got to ride him and ended up getting home at seven ready to drop. 

( Behind a cut for gender dysphoria stuff )

I was going to post last night, but then I spilled my hot chocolate all over the carpeted floor in my bedroom and.
Yeah. There was no posting. At least I got it all out in the end?

( So I guess I'm leasing a horse now?? )
( Also I have feelings about fictional gay characters it must be a day ending in y )

So one of the horses at my barn died yesterday.

( And so many emotions lately I'm not used to this )

 A new comm for music recs: listenhere. It looks pretty awesome and so I'm pimping it out! 

( Horse stuff )

( Homestuck )

 ( Religion and starting school )

( Homestuck update and thinking about Blaine Anderson )

( Horses! )

     Well, this weekend has been crazy. 

( Barn stuff )

( Writing )( I saw Skyfall! (finally) )

      I've been doing a lot of horsey stuff lately--went to a hunter-jumper show with my sister and two friends. My sister and one of my friends are jumpers, while me and my other friend lean more towards dressage. We watched a young adult hunter class, the jumping and the flat, and then we watched a ten thousand dollar showjumping sweepstakes. Still think it looks bizarre to see how riders drop their hands so far down on either side of the horse's on the flat courses, even though my hunter-jumper friend kept telling me it's supposed to encourage the horses to stretch their necks down. A hunter-jumper frame is so different from a dressage frame and I just WHAT. 
     The other day when I was feeding there was a small flash flood in the area between the barn and the indoor arena, and the therapeutic riding class that was in the indoor at the time was trapped. A guy's car was parked around there and he almost got swept away trying to get it out. It really does become, as the barn owner puts it, "a RAGING TORRENT." Apparently that happens every so often, but I hadn't been there during one since I was little. 
     Fandom stuff though--there's so much of it. I've been starting to read Homestuck fanfics and I stayed up way too late last night reading a really cute John/Dave one. I feel like I need to get caught up with Glee fanfics, and also Teen Wolf. Plus I haven't updated my blog for the Fear Mythos in forever. Oops. At least now's supposed to be a cooling down period before shit gets all eldritch and monstery again. Also I did a Homestuck manicure of sorts on one hand (it's pretty much ruined from barn stuff now but oh well) featuring Prospit, Derse, a can of Tab (the Wayward Vagabond is literally the cutest), Dave's record (because it was easy to do plus Dave is a total coolkid), and a squiddle. Why I choose to spend my time on my nails, I don't know, but it's very relaxing and I like the way my hands look, plus it helps me feel like they're there and also mine. I've had a lot of questions about what the fuck everything on my nails is supposed to be. I usually end up just saying RANDOM DESIGNS I KNOW MAD CREATIVITY RIGHT because or else I have to Explain Homestuck and no one asked for an Explanation of Homestuck when they commented on my nails. 

     Happy Forth of July, all Americans! I'm here for the fireworks and sparklers (there were both last night and it was excellent). I must have partied harder than I thought, though, because I woke up in different pants than I had gone to bed in and found my pants and a shampoo bottle floating in the water in our bathroom sink. All of my family said they didn't do it, and I have no memory of changing pants, filling the sink with water, and putting my pants in them. I guess there are worse things to do while sleepwalking?

    I love going to the barn on holidays. No lesson kids, and we all go and exercise the school horses in the back and play country music (Darius Rucker's cover of "Wagon Wheel" featuring the lady from Lady Antebellum is pretty awesome and I'm obsessed with it right now). Got to ride Timmy, who is my fave little yellow quarter horse ever. He was really stiff, though he got a little better after I did some bending exercises. I wish I could lease him but he's used in too many lessons. I really want to find a horse to ride, or at least start riding consistently more than once a week. 

     There's a couple possibilities, though, so I'm hoping that maybe I'll have a horse to lease by the end of summer, and that I could maybe show in intermediate at the fall schooling show. I just want a pony to hang out with and take on trail rides and buy ridiculously expensive treats for and brag but then...money. *sigh*

     I've been listening to country music a lot, like I always do during summer. It's my musical equivalent of comfort food, and it always puts me in a better mood, even in winter. When I was about ten and my mom was upset with my friend's mom because of her involvement with Holy Love Shrine even after the bishop told Catholics that they weren't allowed to take part in services there, me and my best friend would call each other every day and play country music over the phone and talk about our favorite songs. It's always been music for friendships and good times since then, and even though there are occasional gross moments (Accidental Racist? And I usually love Brad Paisley's music, but that song, as well as I'm Still a Guy which is just as obnoxious as it sounds, is kind of unlistenable), I find the cliches of trucks and muddy roads and hard-partying country boys to be charming when they show up, which isn't as often as you'd think (trucks are totally to country music what references to putting one's hands up or clubbing in any way are to pop music).

     Also I found an orchestra version of "Sburban Jungle" from Homestuck, and I know I'll be obsessed with it after I get over Wagon Wheel. It has awesome brass parts, and personally between "Thrift Shop," "Can't Hold Us," "212," and "Little Talks," I think everyone should just accept that brass should be used way more than it is (in pop music at least) because it's pretty fucking awesome. 

Zora if you're reading this I cantered without stirrups today and it was AWESOME. I rode Timmy and he was an excellent little yellow beastie I love him.
Also I had to explain to my sister's friend/my friend's sister what shipping was and apparently my friend already knew about it. It was weird. I used Niall/Leaf (like Niall from One Direction I think) as a ship example because of that one time I went into the neaf tag and it was EVERYONE SHIPPING NIALL/LEAF WUT which was not what I was expecting. At all. Also my friend's sister doesn't watch glee but listens to all of Lea Michele's songs and she was fangirling about O Holy Night and thought Kurt was Rachel's boyfriend. I told her if she likes Lea Michele singing she would like glee and she should watch it. I forewarned her that it was very gay and now I don't think she wants to. :(